I thought we were doing fantastic.
We had this lockdown thing DOWN. I was studying, working, living at the speed of light, even cooking every day something I had never done in my entire life and I’ve been alive… a while. Trust me.
Husband had his work space set up, had some teething issues and homely uproar about “what is this technology” and “I am an academic!” but soon settled into the clichéd new normal, loved the side that he got to spend more time with S as she grew through the most amazing transformation where words turned to sentences and sentences into full in descriptive stories or her own songs!
S had the most issues when we got locked down. For months she would burst into tears asking “logon k ghars kab khulein gai?” Turning into all plans beginning with “Jab sab khul jaaye ga….”
We were winning this.
Starting from sanitising every bit of grocery delivered contactless at our doorstep to grownups losing some weight and the tiddle gaining some.
Him getting better at the tech and taking on new responsibilities at workplace.
Me graduating top of the class at a certification of my choice
And S self weaning and potty training herself
We were the lockdown dream team. We were enjoying our time together as we literally flourished through a time that spelled despair.
Until we stepped out.
Last week he had to travel out of town for work and instead of risking him bringing the virus home, we decided to take the risk of going and getting the virus together if it decides to come home with us
That’s when it hit me. I would jump if someone stood too close. The flippancy of public at large gave me a coronary multiple times a day. So this is how this thing is spreading…
it just got way too real and with that came the lockdown fatigue. @thedoctorreads just put up a post that rang true on so many levels. I wanted to cry without any reason (all my projects are doing better than I had expected). Work overwhelmed me, especially when I woke up one morning to 243 pending posts on a Support Group I run for Breastfeeding Mamas (click on Tap Bio for link). I just wanted to go back to bed or cry or do both. So I did both. Before sitting down to answer each of those queries.
There was plenty of work so this was more like a working travel yet we were in our room at the club for the most part.
The way work has transcended boundaries and entered our homes, it CAN get overwhelming if you let your guards down.
COVID is here and it’ll go eventually but it will leave all of us touched in one way or another. Where technology and remote working has seen a boost it won’t have seen in over two decades otherwise, this will leave all of us a little screw dheela (loose) or tightened and will forever be part of our genome. Which reminds me of the new book I just started reading and am crushing on The Gene by Mukherjee. A story for another post, another day.